I Want to be Beautiful...

Time for a "girlie" post?  My guess is that most of you will laugh, but hey - I can live with a few laughs...ha!

It's been a tough week at work.  One of my girls and I are not getting along much at all.  I can't seem to win with her!  I try and try, but it's just no good.  Sunday night's journal (the girls have to write a journal each night processing through their day.  The journals are a "safe" place for them to express themselves explicitly - they can swear and write whatever they're thinking) had a few choice words for me bringing up all the things she hates about me.  I consider myself a pretty strong person, but when I go to work each day and get the evil eye, muttering under the breath, and the hate journals, it gets to wear on me.  It hurts!  I can't pretend that I don't have feelings - I do.  But the girls don't remember this - they don't remember that we're human as well.  We do make mistakes!  We do have feelings!  We have bad days too!  It's a lot to live up to.

I haven't been able to talk to many people back home this past week either because I've been sick and trying to sleep it off and get my voice back (good news - it's back!).  Not talking to friends is REALLY hard, especially when your week is not so good.  I miss them!  I miss my family!  I need a hug...

I'm reading the book Captivating right now.  It's a book about looking into the heart of a woman.  I've been journaling throughout the book, and trust me, I've learned a lot!  Even when it's hard to admit, I have been accepting this for the past week: I want to be beautiful!  I want to be someone who shines.  I want to show people love.  I want to be enough for the folks I come into contact with.  I want someone to tell me, "you are beautiful.  I think you are beautiful."  Sounds selfish...but it's especially true when I've had a week like the one I just had.  I don't feel beautiful.  I don't feel like I'm enough.  I don't feel like I'm shining.  Sometimes, I just need to be reminded of it.

So if you're bored, send me an email or give me a call!  I have a voice now, so I can actually talk!  I may cough in your ear, but I have a voice!

I love you all!

Blessings!

Juneau Crud

Sound fun?  Let me tell you, it's not.  It's basically the common cold but kick the not feeling good about 50% higher and you've got Juneau Crud.  My roommate has had it for that past two weeks and is still not over it.  This is not good.

But, here's the great thing about Juneau Crud: I get to sit on the couch all day and watch 24!  And no one judges me because I'm sick and you can't judge a sick person.  So I'm in my comfy clothes with my hot tea, under my t-shirt blanket, and enjoying 24.  Still debating whether or not to call in sick for work tomorrow...maybe I should...

It's still snowing outside.  Actually, I just looked out the window, and at the present moment, it's not snowing.  But it will - the sky is grey and white.  I think someone on the radio reported that we've gotten over 130 inches of snow since October.  Figures.  The winter I come up, they get a record amount of snow.  ;-)

I ran errands today - mostly just to get allergy and sinus medicine.  Went over to the Harris' house to check the mail and got to play with Marina for a bit (Marina is their dog).  Marina was SO excited to see someone (they're gone for a couple weeks) and was jumping around in the snow and biting the snow.  She was so fun.  She gave me the puppy dog sad eyes as I was leaving. 

Sorry to report that there is not a whole lot more to report on!  Life is pretty much the same up here.  For those of you who read this blog, write me questions that I can answer!  I love questions!  You can put them in the comments section of this blog, or email me.  

Wow, this blog is kinda scrambled.  I must be sick.  Time to get a refill on tea and turn on 24.  I love you all and miss you tons!

Blessings!